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I am living in Bayarea with my wife and 2 boys elder 6yr, youger 2yrs, My father expired on May30th 2010. i flew to india for funeral with my family. i have a elder brother and two sisters, all are married and settled well. My brother is also staying in USA with his family. there was some family discussion through out a night and there is some pressure from my brother about the money and share of a business, we didn't agree on any option. i became maniac on 12th day of my fathers funeral due to all pressures and less sleep, i went through a acute psychotic episode,i became maniac and i started to scold my brothers, sisters loudly on some past events. on 15th day of funeral i was admitted to a mental hospital for treatment forcebly, i stayed in hospital for 9 days and then weekly visit for 2 months. doctor gave medication for 6 months.

i returned to USA after 2 months of father's funeral, i am very guilty about my behavior during the maniac period but i am not in very conscious state during that time, i started to go to work, after few days of coming back to USA i started to feel no interest on any of the things, feeling worth less, want to skip the work and a lot of negative thoughts always bothering me, i became very lazy. my wife put me to a psychiatrist immediately and i am visiting him once a week, psychiatrist told me i am in depression symptoms and started giving anti depression medication, but i still feel lazy and want to stay in bed all time even though i am not sleeping, my mood settles fine afternoons but feel very difficult to come out bed in the mornings and feel lazy to do the things and not interested in any activity, wife and friends gave the advise to do exercise, yoga, but i am not able to adopt them due to lazy ness. my wife advised for the counseling sessions with one more psychiatrist since last 3 weeks, he suggested to talk to friends and do exercise, i started to talk to friends but no interest in exercise, it is almost more than 6 months since my father died, but still i am not set into old routine. my wife tries to console me some time when i say i want to go to bed, and scolds me some times and cries some times, she asks me whether i love her, kids or not and ask me to stay out of bed after but iam not able to stop going to bed even after 8am (after 9 hrs of sleep), when i went to bed i am not sleeping i am just lying on the bed and closing my eyes. i am shamed of myself but still like to go to bed. on weekends i am staying on bed till 4pm afternoon even though i am awake at 8am, i am just lying on bed and closing my eyes all the time when i am on the bed.

i asked the psychiatrist if there is any magic way like hypnotism to keep me away from this sleeping disorder he says no there is no shortcut, i have to have strong determination my self. i told my situation to my manager at work he suggested to keep my self busy with some routine schedule but at work all are busy in thier own things, many times i feel scared that i will loose my job soon. wife's parents are worried and they are meeting with swami's, raekhi ..etc for positive thoughts and energy but nothing worked out as i myself. i am still on the medication for psychotic behaviour, that medication could causes some drowsiness, i am sleeping for 9 hours daily with some tossing and turning some times, but feel like staying in the bed after wakeup. i hate my situation, i don't know how to motivate my self, no confidence on my self.

please suggest me some tips to bring my self back to normal. i love this forum a lot. and browsing through this site is the only interest i have. in iam 34yrs old and i am in USA since august 2005.

Not a doctor here, but I would seriously research the anti anxiety medication that you are taking. This seems like a classic case of the side effect(s) of the medication you are taking. The medication's job would be to suppress/depress you so that you do not have any manic episodes which was your original problem. Maybe this medication or it's dosage is working "too effectively" and while it seems to be controlling the original symptoms effectively might be causing the side effects of lethargy etc. Maybe you could talk to your doctor about alternatives/dosage.

I would also start researching alternative medical approaches to your problem other than mainstream medicine who seem to take the safest approach(to them) of subscribing the pill with the most potency approved by the insurance companies without much thought about the consequences on the patient and also not caring to educate the patient about their problem.

Educating yourself about your problem and researching all your options would be the best step forward. If you could post the drug name and dosage maybe some of us so inclined could help with researching the subject too.

God speed to your recovery.

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MadMax;353903Not a doctor here, but I would seriously research the anti anxiety medication that you are taking. This seems like a classic case of the side effect(s) of the medication you are taking. The medication's job would be to suppress/depress you so that you do not have any manic episodes which was your original problem. Maybe this medication or it's dosage is working "too effectively" and while it seems to be controlling the original symptoms effectively might be causing the side effects of lethargy etc. Maybe you could talk to your doctor about alternatives/dosage.

I would also start researching alternative medical approaches to your problem other than mainstream medicine who seem to take the safest approach(to them) of subscribing the pill with the most potency approved by the insurance companies without much thought about the consequences on the patient and also not caring to educate the patient about their problem.

Educating yourself about your problem and researching all your options would be the best step forward. If you could post the drug name and dosage maybe some of us so inclined could help with researching the subject too.

God speed to your recovery.

i am taking 1 Zyprexa (Olanzapine) 15mg, 1 Lamictal (Lamotrigine) 100mg at night every day.
i am taking 2*100mg Zoloft (Sertraline) in the morning.

dbs;353747
In my opinion, all mental disturbances start when one feels unfairly treated

Highlighting again to make sure such, candid point is not lost between paragraphs.